.Hate.Me.

[[.Luna.]]

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone


Tears in my eyes, I made my way up the stairs into the abandoned Genesis Order base. It is late dusk. The sun is barely up, leaving a dark reddish orange light upon the land. I pushed open the double doors and they creaked loudly. Slowly, I walked in, memories immediately flowing in my head. I see Sio and I, we're holding each other. A single tear trickled down my pale face.

I placed my hand gently on the dusty table. My hand lingered there. I walked down the aisle. My heart pounded inside my chest. I couldn't believe I was here. I refused to even think about this place after Sio died...and our son.


Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”



I began up the stairs. I froze when I heard the whispers. Luna...Luna...I love you... It's just in my head, I said to myself. It's all in my head. I walked past a mirror and gasped. White hair. Then, I realized it was my own hair. Tears sprung from my eyes. I ran.


There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space


I ran up the stairs, took a right, and barged into the last room on the left. It was our room. I collapsed on the bed, mourning. I cried for hours, it felt like. When I took control of myself, I looked up. There was a painting of Sio and I...and our baby boy. My eyes glistened with tears. What was I doing? Why was I here, putting myself in such misery? I was already in misery, I told myself. I sighed. I stroked the velvet sheets, remembering how it used to be. I choked out a sob. I could smell him. Oh, Sio, what did I do? Why did I leave you in fear again? I shouldn't have. It was selfish. I promised you and myself that night. I....promised....


Hate me today...
Hate me tomorrow...
Hate me for all the things, I didn't do...
For you....


[[See, what I was thinking, it that (if Sio is still here), Sio could come. But, that's up to you Sio]]

[/blockquote]